Jan. 5th, 2024

Pivoting

Jan. 5th, 2024 11:50 am
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I decided that for 2024 I want to pivot my career. I want to do something different, something creative, something hands-on but remote at the same time. I've been in customer service, in-person, for the past 12 years and I'm absolutely sick of it.

UX has been on my mind for a while, mostly because of meeting a guy 7 years ago who was in the field. I still think UX is made-up, and doing the coursework online makes me want to scream sometimes, but UX writing might be the ticket. It might make me want to scream as well, but I don't think I have the chops to be a screen-writer or anything like that. I've started looking up UX writing resources and bootcamps and stuff, and immediately... well I know there will be a cost for this stuff, and I consider it an investment, but then I notice one of the biggest ones is an Israeli company. Do I want to get into that? I do not think I want to get into that.

Could still be a full-time fanfic writer. Doing it for the plot. But also, 100% unpaid. Although I've heard Minotaur smut is quite the thing these days... and you can get paid for it!! I haven't written a fanfic, or even a full regular story, in years. Didn't do NaNoWriMo this past year, and the last time(s) I did it, I recall everything just spiraling into murder and sex pretty much immediately. Plot? Never heard of her. Although I did have a good one at one point about a woman who was a ghost and was trying to... figure that out.

One of the problems is that I've read so many excellent books (Tamsyn Muir, I'm looking at you) that I feel this expectation of writing similarly well-crafted things when I write. Not that I'd ever be at Tamsyn's level, but that... to write something with intent, and thought, and real plot would be kind of the expectation.

But it's an expectation I need to let go of, right? Don't we make these posts every year, these memes about letting go and not being perfect, but instead just doing our art for the joy of it? I want to write for the joy of it.

And to make fat stacks.

Memory

Jan. 5th, 2024 10:26 pm
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Today I thought I smelled my best friend.

His room had a particular smell, his house always smelled the same, and it carried on to him, he smelled like that too. Like incense and black soap, old wood, good food, plant matter. He mattered to much to me.

I thought I smelled him today, walking through work. I just stopped in the middle of the space and kept smelling. A scent I hadn't smelled in almost two years now. It's been so long. I miss him so much. He doesn't talk to me anymore. We were friends for 10 years. I love him so much and I miss him so much.

Scent is such a strong trigger for memory.

I wonder if I should call him. Is that ok.

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